©2020 Susan Noyes Anderson
I’m in a battle for myself,
and I’m afraid to lose.
Life used to feel more solid,
like I had a right to choose
I thought at last I had it down:
Accept. Let go. Let God.
My hard-earned wisdom sheltered me
until I lost you, Todd.
And now it seems all bets are off;
the world is spinning wild.
How can a mother’s heart accept…
let go…give God her child?
This is a price too dear, a wound
too deep, a lifetime lost.
And yet, the joy you brought my way
was more than worth the cost.
I’m broken, but I’m blessed as well;
and something in me knows
that life is what I signed up for,
and this is how life goes.
Kintsugi, a traditional Japanese art, uses a precious metal…liquid gold or silver…to bring together broken pieces of pottery, while at the same time enhancing its beauty. I hope and believe that our lives utilize the same process to make of us more than we are and refine the beauty of our souls.