God Knows: On Trust and Timing
©2025 Susan Noyes Anderson
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I’m getting sicker in a way my heart does not embrace.
Mortality looms larger now; my mind can’t quite erase
this feeling of impending change that hovers over me.
I need more time before I slip into eternity.
A little bit more time to get my loved ones set and sorted,
more time to say goodbye and make sure nobody feels shorted.
More time to settle into my own grief at being gone.
More time to process Fear Of Missing Out when life goes on.
I know the hours are sliding by. Why should I be surprised
when my own body tells me truths I hadn’t realized?
The frost is on the pumpkin, and the barn is filled with hay,
yet I’m not ready to retire. My soul prefers to stay.
I love my loved ones here on earth; I love the ones on high.
Some days, I think of leaving pain behind me when I fly.
That said, the Spirit whispers something I already know.
The strength I need will bear me up until it’s time to go.
Only the Lord can tell that time, and He will make it right.
My joy relies on trusting Him with all my mind and might.
So, while this time on earth is mine, I’ll live and laugh and love.
God has a plan. All will be well – on earth and up above.
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If this poem resonates with you, you might also relate to With Hearts Flung Wide and Musings on Faith.
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